tujuh

kepenatan
ke-cranky-an
silence
tears
nervous
heat
complaint
envy
unfairness
pain
shame
trouble
dissapoinment
addiction
boredom
shits

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as human beings..

how bad can we be when comes the day we need to be totally out of control until a mama's boy or girl could turn into a dangerous freak??

how childish can we act when we face a rude 8 years old boy who cursed to a stranger??

how sick can we feel when all the hopes and promises from the one we truly love turned out to be plain goddamn lies??

i wonder how..

sobsobsob

kne fikir pasal org lain.
i tried to do so.
kdg2 smpai diri sendiri susah.
tp sume bnde boleh ejaz ape..
well,maybe not all d time but most of d time.
why?
coz i knew karma does exist.
allah nampak,allah dgr,allah tahu,allah perhati.
allah boleh bayar cash anytime kalo die nak coz die yang maha kaye.
im a no gud.
but it doesnt make u better.
my house is a single storey with only 3 bedrooms and in it a chaotic family but we do no harm to others.
im sure i had swallowed everything.
i wonder how ur face covered with my spit.

enam

i picked em all one by one

some are heavy some are lighter but all of it brings misery

i picked em all wit my bare hand

so i cud feel the satisfaction on my skin

i bottled em up,now its well packed then i tightened up the cover

no one will open it ever

to the deepest sea it will go,forever u will go

all of my sorrows

lime

i was waiting for u..

i was alone..at home..

first i saw the sun..

it shines but it was sad..

then came the rain..

as if the cloud is cryin..

the wind blew..lazily..

as lazy as it can be..

i saw the tree shaking..

side to side..left to right..

still, u are out of sight..

and now the night is dropping by..

with the moon and the stars in the sky..

the moon is gloom..

the stars are gloomer..

i'm still waiting for u..

i wonder when u will be here.. 

~ sigh ~

empat

i'm sending u kisses from my heart

must u know dat nothing cud tear us apart

the distance is never too far

i'll hitch a ride on a comet to get to where u are

a glance then a poke then a hi then a date then a kiss

dat kiss from u which have made me melt

in a heartbeat i knew for better

forever there is no other

u are one in a million of dat i'm sure

tige

do u remember the time when we were still together?

u eat when i eat, sleep when i sleep, cry when i cry and laugh when i laugh..

though u're not wit me anymore..

in my heart, my mind, my memories - u remain..

the best partner i ever had..

the greatest love i ever felt..

do u remember the time when we were still together?

how we used to be one..

no matter what we had infront..

along the way - together we run..

hik3..i had fun :)

i promise u i'll be better..

i promise u i'll be good..

i promise u i'll miss u forever..

n i promise u we will meet again anytime soon..

due

i can't describe the pain..

but i know its so great..

when people are talking its just so hard to concentrate..

someday it feels like i wanna stand and fight..

the other day,u just know to quit the battle was right..

hoping the heart is a machine..

hoping the love will dismissed..

the memories will stay no matter what..

but not to look at it is just hard..

i've asked god to show me the way..

he had shown me the way..

now i'm walking through..loveless..

looking for someone i could turn to..

satu

was that rain drops I heard this morning?

it was..the chills on my skin brought back memories.

sweet memories.

those moment we spent on the beach with millions sparkling sands.

when I open my eyes I saw u.

u were just like a baby,sleeping so deeply while holding my hand for security.

the night before was so unbelievable.

like a dream. where rainbows and stars and moon were dancing around in a circle blessing us with love and luck.

open your eyes. kiss me endlessly.

i promise that my love to u is like the sun who promised it's shine to the earth. eternity.

-_-

ashikin is a fat lazy sleepyhead
 * yawn*
she do not know what to do
she ate sambal sotong with mix vege and ayam goreng kunyit (lovely!!) for lunch today then she slept
after she was bit by 3 mean mosquitoes she get up and ate a bowl of coco crunch plak
now she's planning on getting herself 2 beef hotdogs coz mama sumpah la sgt menggode dgn makanan beliau
urrggh!cane x gumuk ashikin!
time mandi tadi rase cma nak main badminton malam2 tapi x de shuttlecock
sape nak belikan??

shisha

uuu..saye di sini ingin mempromote SHISHA SEDAP yang beroperasi di SEMPENEH ss13 shah alam.
name sebenar shisha sedap tersebut adelah hookah.
dikendalikan oleh beberape jejake - ade yg sorg tu somel dan sgt la frenly
shisha sedap ini will only cost u starting from only RM8!!
u can either gune dapur biase or dapur nenas.

ade macam2 flavour such as :

69, linda jasmin, hookah special, outlaw and a lot more.

last night was my 3rd night shisha-ing there and it was great as per expected.
me n him brought afiq the tanker to tried - he was sooooo hepi and satisfied. (he can be fussy sometimes)

besh nye shisha-ing di hookah :

• brother shisha rajin tukar arang - so mmg layanan tiptop die kasik satu jam kalu.
• walopun anda da isap sket punye lame sampai perit anak tekak, flavour still mantob and asap mmg boleh bikin meja panjang kt sbelah rase cam kat genting.
• dorg pasang lagu kat stall comel dorg. ade org x suke coz bising and sume lagu techno but im totally fine with it :p rs cam g club pun ade.
• artis2 karok from opposite shop kadang2 layan lagu besh2 n sore pun sedap2.

x beshnye sikit ade gak :

• mawa kate toilet sempeneh koto sket so kepade anda yg mempunyai masalah nak lepak lame sbb asek nak tekucil je jadi leceh la. saye x try lagi- takot.hahaha.
• kdng2 ade kete n moto suke lalu lalang n rem2 cam kat situ litar sepang.
• artis2 karok yg nyanyi x sedap pastu nyanyi byk lagu.huhu.

wutever it is, i swear this shisha is so gud, u will be addicted. 

it does beat shisha abg botax kat sunway :p

nnt nak bawak nabelle gi try. pasti beliau suke.

choi!

ape la yg susah sgt nak masuk ess nye page ni!

bagi org site utk check payslip tp nak masuk sikit punye payah!

call HR sume ngah anyam ketupat kot kat dlm opis tu x leh nak pikap phone.

bile dapat, nape ko x reset password aku la hanggok! - sbb aku still x leh masuk.

choi!

sex and the city

i asked him to download the 6 whole damn seasons coz i am so in love with the series.
yeah, maybe i am few years behind but so what.
with my plan to quit my job (im so sure they will terminate ME first) it seems like i have all the the time in the world to finish the whole seasons. no worries on that.
and e..ve..ry episode surprises me. pheww!
sometimes it juz too gud to be true or too bad or too kinky or too weird.
i looooove MR BIG!he is juz so sexy but cold but sexy and RICH! i wonder can i keep up with a guy like that. and presently, i think i can. he is juz so the right guy for me. hahahaha. perasan!

carrie is always over reacting and think too much.pretty insecure about this and that but hell - who is not!

miranda..errmm..rude. terrible outfit. oh,oh..carrie sgt la kengkang.kalo die dok malaysia, mmg la org akn stare je bile die jalan.

charlotte is decent and naive. issues that she had can can be exciting sometimes and it was such a relieved to still have people like her. i would like to have a friend like charlotte. supportive and reliable. i do have one at the moment but she is totally sexless la citenye. which is also a gud thing.lol.

SAMANTHA! i am so freaking in love with her. the way she thinks, acts, talks, dressed..(well maybe im not into her outfit that much) but still..she is one strong very opportunist when it comes to guys and the chance of having sex with em.

these people i realized la kan - they eat, they have sex  and complaint if they did not get a gud one. it seems so easy being them.
jarang2 la nampak dorg stress pasal keje.
when i was 10 years old i told myself that i need to have 3 things before i got married
1. my house
2. my car
3. my enough saving if i was left by my husband
and i as i grow up i got my number 2, am so far from number 3 apetah lagi number 1.
i really do envy dos 4 women from SATC but..what the heck its a drama created..i repeat CREATED for certain purposes of coz.
but whatever it is..it does helping me to redirect myself about a lot of things.
sume bende ade pro and cons - so does sex and the city.
its juz how u interpreted it and applied the values in our life.
tgk al-kulliyah every week but if u juz dont give a fuck on the issues or values or tips that they offered x gune gak kan.ahax! renungrenungkan dan selamat beramal :P